An Open Letter to My Oldest Son

 Dear JJ,

I'm sorry.

Mommy is sorry for all of the times I have lost my patience with you. I know you don't understand now but I hope you understand when you get older..

You see, mommy loves you so much but she is overly stressed with taking care of your brother every minute of every day.

I know it doesn't make it right, but it makes mommy human. 

I know you get jealous and I am trying to do my best to juggle my time with you and your brother. You may not understand his condition but Jaxson needs a lot of my attention right now.

I love our movie and ice cream dates.

I love our tickle fights.

I love how you say "Smash-potatoes".

I love your creativity and imagination.

I love that even at almost five years old that you still love to give mommy kissies and cuddles.

I want you to know that I am so proud of the little man you have become. You are so smart and so sweet.

Love, Mom